09/05/10
SO LONG SUCKA!
i've changed my blog to http://shadow-clad.blogspot.com/
cos ebloggy really pisses me off...
gd job
09/04/10
testing testing one two,
alriiite.. lets hope this is going to be a success. haha, its my first time embedding a photo/picture into ebloggy entry. so if u see a string of rubbish, sorry i'm a noob =P
OKay guys! time for my monthly update! lol, okay, its not supposed to be a monthly update, but as you can see, it indeed looks like it. so sorry for the inconsistency and inadequacy of the updates here.(not like there are alot of readers though xP)
but here it is! long time no update! haha. okay, so a run through of events i've been keeping myself bz with for as much as i can remember:
>firstly i have been trying adhoc jobs to kill time, gain some experience in as many types of jobs as possible and earn some pocket money at the same time :D job1, freelance adventure camp instructor. tough work, quite fun, quite an experience, unworthy pay with respect to the working hours, spent one month doing roughly 5 camps and now taking a break from it. job2, singapore discovery center adhoc facilitator. mainly to help out in exhibitions and workshops conducted for mass audiences for eg. international friendship day. though i haven't really done been to work yet. not that keen either. job3, renewed my application for relief teaching and eventually hit the jackpot when mama choy needed some help for her maths dept. did a 1 week RT back in RV. hoho, reminds me of the lucky reunion back in at the harbour front campus, 2years ago. it was the brilliant alignment of 5 stars that fates' intertwined thereafter. =] speaking of which, it no longer feels the same it was before...
back to the brighter side, e few exciting things tt happened. MOI 21ST BIRTHDAY! muahahaxD as you guys can see in the photo i tried to attach(or cannot see if it was unsuccessful), it shows one of the numerous shots from my dedicated event photographer cheng yuan. my dearie family and members. too bad my younger bro and my aunt wasn't there when the pic was taken. just would like to pay tribute to a term i hardly use for pay attention to - family. there it is, usually the behind-the-scenes biggest stars of all, well, at least they are for me. well, was really glad i threw tt party. made me feel so fortunate to have had so many valuable acquaintances along the way, and certainly much more to come=] and some... cannot be merely considered friendship i guess;] once again a big thankew to all who turned up, those that helped in every way possible and also for all the presents, love em!
okayy. i tink that shall be the end of this month's update! lol, what a turn down eh.. yea, i know. but its good to know that i even tried to change my blog skin to give this blog a fresh look. doesnt look successful eh. haha. alright, till next time, tC n Cheeriox =]
17/02/10
the ancient floodgates broke opened that faithful day.
i guess i couldn't deceive myself after all. who was i kidding?
as time trickled away day by day, i could sense the black hole taking shape and place somewhere in me.. this one would be catastrophic.. the void that would be left behind would be so deep...
come to think of it, i managed to hold the front even when i saw her off.. bros b4 hos, that's what they called it, bros b4 hos.
really didn't want to let u see me in that state la.. but as i tried so hard to occupy my senses and ran around entertaining mutual friends, taking photos on your own camera, i couldn't help but notice the various walks of life from every clique, the numerous groups of friends coming together to send off this wonderful bond and brotherhood for the better. and then it got me thinking; it has really been my blessing to have met him, to have walked the short but hectic 6 years-journey called life together with him. and now, he will have to spend the next 6 years down that road in solitary (ok, not that bad, i just meant w/o me ). from that moment, the hard truth started whamming down.. causing the sturdy walls to let out a initial crack.. and it started leaking.
it has thus begun. as we walked together to the departure gates, i had to lag behind all the other cliques.. isolating myself in a bid to recover from the initial break down. but it was no use... from afar, amidst all the other groups walking in front, i kept my gaze on his back, pushing mercilessly towards that glass wall. the second burst came after arriving at the gates. i walked away from the main crowd, desperately trying to clean up the mess.. i told myself i couldn't let him rmbr me this way as the last piece of memory he takes with him. i turned to look at the activity back there; he was making his final move, hugging everyone who turned up(yes, a hug is very powerful). damn, i won't be able to survive this one..
after a desperate attempt, i took a final deep breath and walked over to the furthest clique, F5. wrong move... shan let loose too.. i turned away once again, this time, shan with me trying to dry it before the final blow. alas, it was too late...
i had wanted to take another peek to see how much time there was left.. he was already making his way towards me.
the hug shattered every single egoistic piece of armor left in me. i had to cover my scrunched-up face with the other hand as we held each other in brotherly embrace.
really, i had told myself, its no big deal. and i will have handled it the way i did before with her departure, which was rather composed. besides, all i had to do was wait for the end of the year to see each other again... how bad can it get?
well, now u know how wrong and foolish i was.. i was just avoiding it the whole time. escapism didn't quite work out well..
recognising the the cold hard truth, i know that things will never be the same.. his involvement in my life, and mine in his... suddenly, it has to change.
now now, remember the things u left behind; bonds forged in blood and sweat, friendships and relationships crafted and family ties that cannot be compared to any other. Remember all that was sacrificed.. let them not be in vain. go get what you always wanted. i believe in you. stay focused. you'll make it.
woah, such a gay entry. sheesh... what more can i say, i love that guy.
28/01/10
this blog's a dead one.
i dun mind that. in fact, i relish in the fact that only a few bothered ppl get to read whatever is written here. simply because to the rest, it'd be superficial and troublesome. yes, i hate troublesome.
but there are times when i hoped some things can be well-received by parties un-labelled by my shadow. like when i just managed to catch this totally AWESOME movie and i want to share this piece of recommendation to everyone else out there on how meaningful and intriguing and at the same time reflective this film is. Alas, wait for it....
LAW ABIDING CITIZEN.
go catch it.
speaks about morals and what is really right to do, although spelt out in ironic methods. it digs into every individual to stir the very shadows that lies unconscious under the egos we live. in this film, depicted aptly by the professional lawyer and ironically the "law abiding citizen".
okayy.. enough about that movie review.
here's a little update about me thus far. =P
>sooo close i can smell it... 10 feb. however, its highly-over-anticipated.
>and if u'r wondering why i find so much time blogging, im on a 5 day MC after my wisdom tooth surgery. this few days at home really forebodes the impending boredom to come after 10th feb.
> thus, im TRYING to actively search for a way out when the time comes. most logical of all choices, get a part-time to earn some allowance. OR to get into some interns/job shadowing in view of my ambitions and aspirations.(how easy*rolls eyes)
>after plucking out 2 teeth from the left side of the mouth, the other 2 from the right will be due on 1st feb, the same time i remove my stitches from the left. nice...
there.. just about enough for the time being. haha.. well, guess this is it for now.
tC